Why I ended my makeup career.
Ever since I was in Middle School, I always wanted a career in the beauty industry.
I was the first one in my 6th grade class to come in with sliver glitter eyeshadow and eyeliner, HA! It wasn’t cute, but I loved it.
When I got to High School I was able to take cosmetology classes for half the day and my regular classes in the afternoon.
I had high expectations for how my new beauty classes were going to go and couldn’t wait to start!
For the next two years I tried my best to pay attention and learn about hair. But as the two years went on, I noticed that the schooling wasn’t great, most of the students were there to hang out, and not really learn anything.
Sadly the teacher had favorites, I only got to cut my manikins hair once! In two years!!
Makeup was never taught, neither was skin care which was what I was really into at the time.
When I graduated High School I thought the best thing for me to do was to go to Esthetician School.
After all that was done I was ready to go out and find a job as a makeup artist!
I bought my own kit and spent way too much money on makeup, HA!
I applied to so many jobs and interviews.
Many times I was told over and over again that my talent didn’t matter, as long as my sales hit high numbers that’s all that mattered.
I tried freelance for a while and that’s when it really hit me that I wasn’t right for this career.
I’m a laid back quiet person. I noticed how competitive this field really was and it was hard for me to come to terms with myself and realize I’m not cut out for this.
At this point Instagram and social media had really blown up and it seemed like everyone turned into a makeup artist overnight.
I slowly started to hate the pressure I put on myself to be like other artists, and also deal with clients not wanting to pay prices. Also, having to work sales forever.
It took me a year of going back and forth of thinking, “Do I want to deal with stress and anxiety every day of my life or pick something that fits my personality better and make me a happier person?”
As it turned out, the answer was children. I came to realize that caring for and bonding with children filled an empty space that I felt was there for a long time. I felt more fulfilled and satisfied, rather than trying to survive in a superficial-based career. That is why I only do makeup for myself and those who are close to me.
It still amazes me that I used to wear makeup every single day to high school. I would not go to school without putting on makeup. Nowadays I don’t even wear makeup a lot of the time. I find it interesting that something that used to mean so much to me slowly went away, but at the same time I was able to make myself happier through that process.
All in all, I guess what I am trying to say, is that you never know where you will end up. More importantly, you never know what will end up making you happy. But once you find it, no matter how surprising it may be, it will become a part of who you and help shape you as a person. It definitely did in my case.